Addicted by Erin M. Akers
I’m addicted to this feeling; I’m addicted to this high.
Because now more than ever I know I’m alive.
These tastes are familiar, and this smell is like home.
I’d rather take the familiar, than risk the dangerous unknown.
My body aches, my feet are sore, but this too I recognize
I’ve even come to expect the sight of sad and hollow eyes.
I know this game, I play it well, because for years this was my life.
There are scars and wounds inside my head from ED’s familiar knife
I know his words, I know his game, cause Ed, he comes to play
He knows exactly what to do, and knows exactly what to say
&& I know tomorrow I’ll regret these choices that I've made
But when he’s in my head those consequences simply fade away
Today just doesn’t seem so great so why fight for another?
The truth is I would just give up, if it wasn’t for my mother.
So today I’ll do it, just for her. But one day, I will be free
Because I won’t be doing it for her, I’ll be doing it just for me!
Because now more than ever I know I’m alive.
These tastes are familiar, and this smell is like home.
I’d rather take the familiar, than risk the dangerous unknown.
My body aches, my feet are sore, but this too I recognize
I’ve even come to expect the sight of sad and hollow eyes.
I know this game, I play it well, because for years this was my life.
There are scars and wounds inside my head from ED’s familiar knife
I know his words, I know his game, cause Ed, he comes to play
He knows exactly what to do, and knows exactly what to say
&& I know tomorrow I’ll regret these choices that I've made
But when he’s in my head those consequences simply fade away
Today just doesn’t seem so great so why fight for another?
The truth is I would just give up, if it wasn’t for my mother.
So today I’ll do it, just for her. But one day, I will be free
Because I won’t be doing it for her, I’ll be doing it just for me!